Y'all!!!!! Ok so here's the deal, you guys know that I am super transparent with you about my struggle and this entire journey called life. One of the things that I've struggled with for a very long time is self-doubt. I often find myself comparing myself, my goals, accomplishments. my journey, MY LIFE to others. I know, I know, that's not a good thing, but this is my truth.
I've always felt like I need to do a little more to be a little bit better, while at the same time feeling as though I'm just not good enough. Now in my rational mind I know that this is FAR from the truth. However, it is a constant battle. I mean the smallest thing can trigger me, and cause me to want to shut down, throw my hands up, walk away & say forget everything because I'm just not god enough! These thoughts then in turn cause me to feel sad, unworthy, unaccomplished, unproductive and sometimes even useless. YES, you read that right!!! The one who motivates everyone else struggles with motivating herself.
Be that as it may, I am committed to myself, my journey, and my calling. I have made it a habit to be transparent because I realize that holding it all in does nothing but cause me to internalize & scrutinize every single detail of my entire being. That sounds so dramatic, but it's true! My transparency with you all is my sort of therapy & even accountability.
My love language is hands down Word of Affirmation. Not only does it fill me up & feed me to hear affirming words from other people, but I am learning to speak those same words over myself! I can't encourage you guys and tell you to make your confessions, and then turn around and not do the same for me! This is how My Confessions of Faith even came to be! Feeling less than, possibly depressed, and having so many negative self-thoughts was killing me slowly. One day I realized just how much power lies within my words & I made a conscious choice to begin boldly, and outwardly speaking & confessing good things over myself & my journey.
I am not yet where I want to be (wherever that is lol), BUT I'm getting there one step a time. If I can offer you any advice today, it would be to be kind to yourself, and give yourself a little bit of grace. Your journey is NOT the next person's. Your calling is not theirs, and your outcome will not be theirs either. You have to do what is best for you the best way you know how. This is a lesson that I am continually learning but today I confess that it's getting better day by day.
Thanks for listening & thanks for joining me on this journey.
Drop a line in the comments and share your thoughts. I'd love for us to connect and get through this thing together.